Question #14: How do you handle being in control (or when you're not)?
Well, here's another week where I want to quit this whole experiment! Just remember that I'm being transparent to better myself....I'm a work in progress....No one's perfect, etc, etc!
How do I handle being in control....perfectly well, thank you! Yep, that's right, my name is Franny and I'm a control freak! Seriously, I'm a little more organized than some of the people in my life, so it just seems to naturally fall to me to be in control when it comes to the details. I do like to offer control to them when it comes to a lot of the decisions, like what do you want to do, where do you want to eat, etc, but other planning is all on me.
I sometimes don't mind if I'm not in control, but most of the time I don't like it....to be perfectly honest! For example, if it is someone else's turn to be in charge of an activity, but they are a last minute, fly by the seat of your pants kind of person, I get very tense. I want to know when and where as soon as possible, and if it is something that calls for it, I want to know plan B up front. Then I can plan everything else accordingly. If we were supposed to get together with another couple and it was their turn to plan it and they called one day and said let's do it tonight, my first reaction would to be to say no because I wasn't prepared. I know, you're saying prepared for what? Just go have fun! I know, I'm working on it!
The biggest lack of control, obviously is that which God has and we don't at all. I can plan all I want to and God just laughs. He has the power to change your day without a second's notice, and He can upend your life altogether whenever He feels like it. I don't know the exact passage, but it says in the Bible, "who among you can add a moment to your life by worrying?" I keep trying to tell myself that, and believe it or not, I've come a long way! Look at the fact that I'm not working without having a safety net. Yes, we saved up quite a bit before I did it, but COBRA is going to take a lot of that and it won't last forever. What will I do then? I'm not going to worry about it right now. God is in control. He made it very clear that this was what He wanted me to do, and I'm going to do it.
So is this easier said than done....of course! It took me about 5 years to get to this point on just the one topic! But I am getting better. I'm trying to be more like the 2 sisters in the Bible where one was so focused on the details she didn't have any time to spend with Jesus (how I used to be) and the other who did no work, but just stopped to be in His presence (how I'm trying to be). Want a perfect example? I have a whole day of work planned. My house is cluttered from all the Christmas presents and boxes and all the stuff we brought home from Grama's house, but my neighbor just texted me to ask to go shopping with her. I'm dropping all my plans to do just that! Baby steps, but steps nonetheless!
Until Next Time.....